I have no idea what you are going on about and I can't make sense of whatever it is you are trying to say. It sounds like you have many many thoughts of things that you are upset about, or maybe not, or you are happy about. I don't know it's kind of incoherent.

For example "Not how we feel." What does that sentence even mean? It's just there hanging out by itself in its own paragraph and it's not even a complete sentence. What are you even talking about? What is "double-edged judgment"? And that last paragraph... what in the world are you going on about? Mention what to whom? Who is THEY? What does "without some negative assumption we're not justified thrown in our faces" even mean? Who is throwing what in whose faces? What negative assumption? Who is trying to justify what? I mean yes these are all English words and they kind of look like a sentence but it isn't an actual sentence and is incomprehensible.

I am really very curious about what it is you are actually trying to say but I can't even understand this. I think that maybe you're mad about women getting old and that society places less value on them when they do and maybe you blame that on men or something like that Also you are super happy not dating but also think a bunch of things in society are unfair and you invested too much in some man you loved and it wasn't reciprocated. And maybe you're not mad about that but maybe you are frustrated about that. I really don't know because again this is incomprehensible.

I'm not trying to be rude so I apologize if English is not your first language. It just sounds like that might be the case. I get it, I have friends who learned English late in life and it is hard sometimes to find the right words or structure them correctly. I encourage you to keep writing and working on it. Either way, maybe just slow down in your writing and think about what you are trying to say one thought at a time. Keep your sentence structures simple. Sentences don't need to be complex or flowery to communicate effectively. Simple is usually much more effective. Use quotes where appropriate. Make sure every sentence is a complete sentence. If you need it you can even get someone who knows English better to proofread or even rewrite what you are trying to say so that it can be understood. I understand I think you are trying to be snarky or edgy or something like that but that doesn't work unless your base writing is at least readable.

If you can clean this up I would be happy to reread and respond to whatever point you are trying to make but as it is I see no comprehensible thoughts here.